Tuesday, March 27, 2012
And so I do.
I call my son and I call my daughter and I've even been better about calling some of my siblings. I spend time with my mom, but I don't just spend time with her; I strive to amuse her.
This morning we were each doing our own morning "get ready for the day" dance. She comes in with her sweat suit on for therapy and she is asking for help with her sleeve. The liner gets twisted and she can't get her arm all the way in to the sleeve. I turn her around and straighten her jacket, then I ask her to hold her arms out like she is on a cross. Gullibly, she holds them out without thinking and at that point I tickle her ribs and she squeals. A cute little girl squeal with just a faint hint of laughter erupts from her lungs.
It is all I need. I hope it makes her morning. With that being accomplished it is off to the routine....with a smile on our faces.
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A few weeks ago, Mom and I were invited to a St. Patrick's Day party. It was hosted by a few fellow catholics (who have been hosting this shindig off and on for forty years). We went, we mingled, we had a beer or two (or three or four), we took some photos and I got to hear a few stories about my dad from people who knew him from forty years ago. One gentleman was telling me about the first time he met dad at a church volleyball outing. He spiked the ball on my dad's head and my dad asked him if he wanted to fight. Yep, sounds just like my dad. I got a laugh out of it and got to meet some nice people.
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Time, I steal my moments with you. Little moments when no one else is looking. We flirt, we laugh we just relax with one another. Nowhere to be, nothing to do, just the two of us enjoying each other while we can.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Senior moments and scallywags
Recently we were getting ready to leave the house early on a Monday morning. I was scooping up the last of my junk I carry on a daily basis and mom was already headed for the car. I was turning out lights and making my way to the front door and I get there to find her trying to unlock the front door with her keys.....
....from the inside.
There is no key hole on the inside, just a deadbolt. I am grinning like a Cheshire cat, speechless, just grinning. I reach past her and turn the deadbolt and let her out. I lock the door behind us as we leave and take her to her physical therapy session. Once I get to the office, I email my sister to relay the funny moment.
The worst part about this whole situation is knowing full well that my mom, having to endure this natural aging process and the onset of forgetfulness and confusion, is now very vulnerable to my two less unscrupulous brothers who share her home with her. She may be sweet and kind and generous, but that doesn't mean that they won't use it to their advantage. How one would take advantage of the same little old lady who opens her home to you is beyond me.
Another day and another adventure.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Long time coming....
I am told that they had great visits at both locations, playing games, having a stiff drink and swapping laughs and memories well into the nights.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
I looked for you all morning....
....but you're just not there.
Every now and then I remember when
those times we shared, we cared, we dared.
And even though you're not here
I see you in my mind so clear.
Most days it brings a smile, some days a big ol' tear.
As this crazy life keeps keeping on
and we all dance to our own song,
I find myself searching this crowded throng
of people for a glimpse of you....
a glimpse of you....
a glimpse of you....
a glimpse of you.
I don't want mounds of silver and gold.
I don't want heaps of treasures untold.
I don't want to drive a big fancy car.
I don't want to travel either near or far.
I don't want to try to hang the moon.
I don't want to be called home too soon.
I don't want to conquer this world.
I just want my little boy and my little girl.
I just want to shake my dad's hand,
hug him tight and say, "I understand."
I just want to share a beer
with my friends who can't be near.
I just want a little more time
to spend with you....
to spend with you....
to spend with you....
to spend with you....
to spend with you....
What I Want
by stu pidasso
1Sept2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
I find my kids come and go as they please like a....
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I dreamed about dreaming while sitting at work
by stu pidasso
14June2010
I stare into my coffee cup
Vivid mental images in my head
Days gone by or days wished to be
Hand sketches and vendor blueprints
piled like pick-up sticks on my desk
waiting patiently for attention to details
Hodgepodge of school portraits and paperclips
pushed from reach into the corners
beckoning for a touch or spare glance
But my mind flip flops, cartwheels, barrel rolls
through space and time to other dimensions
ripping at the fabric of present day reality
a summer day in mountains at a boy scout camp
an autumn morn in piny woods watching deer
a winter train trip to Virginia for a Xmas holiday
I see my kids in everything around me
I dream about the "what if"s and the "if only"s
I long for time and opportunities to come again
but reality strikes back hard
The Boss says, "Don't screw it up this time."
I let her paint a room and he gets to go zoom-zoom
Driving lessons and house repairs
two teenagers with summer jobs
an evening cooking a meal together
it isn't slaying dragons or riding unicorns
it isn't scaling redwoods or the Himalayas
but it is moments together, shared and enjoyed
life may be slower than I dream
but it sure is sweet when dreams come true
a movie and doing dishes sure can make me smile.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I can't keep it in any longer...
by stu pidasso
25May2010
Its as if I have
a phantom limb.
It haunts me.
I can feel it,
but I can't see it.
I get tingles
as if fingers are
traipsing
back and forth.
I can smell
the sweet aroma
of the flesh.
So close I can
almost taste
the perspiration.
I can hear
the scritchity
scratch
of fingernails
across skin
far to dry.
If I were to be
pinched,
would I feel
it?
If I slept
too long
in the sun
would it burn?
I feel as I have
lost a limb,
but it was my
family,
and I just don't feel
like me anymore.